The Journal of Puteri Joy Lim: Aku sebuah kereta mainan.

"Aku sebuah kereta mainan. Aku dan kawan-kawan aku dipamerkan di atas rak. Aku di-jual mahal (wtf!) kerana aku adalah limited edition yang dihasilkan pada tahun lembu 1985. Warnaku putih berseri, sangat bersih and sebuah kereta yang memang classic. Pada suatu hari, seorang budak gemuk memilih aku dari rak itu. Sedih sangat because terpaksa berpisah dengan kawan-kawan aku. Tapi excited juga because aku mempunyai tuan baru. Nama tuanku ialah Vivi. Tuanku amat menyayangi aku. Dia menamakan aku JOY kerana wajahku yang ceria dan pandai beraksi bodoh-bodoh. Dia meletakkan aku dalam sebuah almari bersama permainannya yang lain. Namun, status aku lebih tinggi because aku dipamerkan on the highest rack. Setiap hari, dia akan menlapkan aku supaya shining-shining dan selalu bermain dengan aku. Alangkah bahagianya bersama seorang tuan yang begitu mengappreciate aku. Akan tetapi, one day, tuan aku bertemu dengan sebuah kereta baru. Kereta yang betul dan bukan kereta mainan. Tuan aku semakin enjoy bersama kereta barunya dan bertouge-touge dalam kegembiraan. Kereta baru itu dapat memahami feelings tuan aku dengan lebih baik because dia terror! Aku dibiarkan di rumah. Tuanku sudah melupakan aku and no longer polish me. Akhirnya, aku dibuang dalam tong sampah bersama permainannya yang lain."

Sekian, tamat. Siao char bor.

I smell my own breath now, I wanna puke =____=

I burp now, I will faint too.

Alot of things ran through my mind last night, though I was physically drop dead, mentally still kinda awake one -.-'...

Who am I to you? What does our relationship mean to you? What's your intention of going around telling people we have ended, then wooing another girl while asking me to wait for you? What are you thinking when you are doing all the couple-ly stuffs with another girl while your gf is waiting for you at home? You like to share food with her so much izit? Go la! Share all you want! You like to take her public and for rides so much izit? Go la!

I'm not a spare tyre you know?

And you think you are smart enough to have the best of both worlds?

Maybe you are true when you say I don't understand you. From what you're doing right now, I really don't understand. Is it because I'm "easily accessible" wtf that's why you take me for granted?

Oh, I see a point that. You're always taking people for granted. Especially people who love you and you expect them to keep forgiving you while you behave in your own snobbish self, still think you are very "yeng" and keep blaming the world for what you have done.

It's always "their fault", never your own.

When will you grow up, my poor child? You may appear that you have everything but let me tell you, you are empty inside! And that's because you push people away even your loved ones with your sick attitude! It takes so much patience, effort, love and time to get to know you and fall in love with you. But you ruin it with one single decision that you made, young man.. I wont call it a mistake, more like a choice you make to trash me off because as you claim, you are *confuse* HaHaHaHaHa

Now, to think that your car "is polluted", I'm fuckingly pissed. Go la, fetch a hundred babes you want with your "Babe Magnet".

Go la to the special someone. Don't deny. Don't act like you concern about me although you yourself know you were the one who crushed my heart to a zillion drops. Don't come to me when she's gone after giving you false hope while all the while I'm standing right behind you, in case you fall back, you won't injured yourself.

The minute you started to lie: you have give up on me.
The minute you started to cheat: you have give up on yourself.
The minute you betrayed me: you have give up ON US.

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