Sunday, January 13, 2013

Flashback

January 13, 2013 @ 9:35pm

It's that kind of night again. Memories flashback. It all started after I was browsing on Instagram and stumbled upon a photo that my friend had posted; a photo of lok-lok session.

Me and him, we love lok-lok. In fact, we can eat lok-lok as our main meal. I suddenly recalled the good old times that we had lok-lok at Pulau Tikus area & also padang near CDK. He loves quail eggs! I mean like we both can eat lots of cucuk if we didn't have discipline to control ourself. I was the one with more discipline and controlled what he actually eats. Like I only limit him to 2-3 cucuk of quail eggs, for health reason la, it's not like he diets or exercise and quail eggs are really high with cholestrol. And each time he wanted to eat more quail eggs, he would look at me with pity eyes & I would sternly say NO! Then his or lor pattern lai liao, he "nego" la, said share half-half la & I usually gave in wtf And the stall that we usually went right, the bos very funny one, he always count the sticks very fast and in a very hilarious manner. And our bills always came up to lucky numbers one, like RM 19.80, RM 18.80, etc

I mentioned about cholestrol in the above right, this leads to another story. Once we were at the kfc near my workplace for lunch. So i very gaya and ordered lo & proudly told the staffs, "I tak mahu cholestrol huh, I mahu tukar dengan potato" wtf Fatty was standing next to me gigling and he said, "Halo, it's not cho-les-law, it's "coslaw" We couldn't stop laughing throughout the meal. And he even tease me about it after that. The good ol' times.

As much as I'm concern for his health & weight, we never do sports together one. I mean absolutely seldom. All I could recalled was us climbing hill at Youth Park once & went swimming for just once. It's just him, never wanna do sport or maybe he didn't wanna do with me la since I'm also not the sporty kind of person. I'll usually fall sick due to over-tiredness after sport wtf Must change! Must change!

Typing on this laptop reminds me of how we used to chat everynight while he was abroad. We chatted everynight at 8pm sharp, web-caming and often we would chat until frustrated one cuz wifi line was suck to the max. And the distance that separated us made us both miss each other so much that often I'd cry to sleep after our chat session ended. It's funny how we cherished each other so much while we were apart & desperately wanting to be together. But when he's back here, he left me; twice. Really funny how things work sometimes. It is always the tough times that brings me closer to him, the tough times that makes me cherish him more & those memories that makes my love for him grow. But maybe, it was also for the same reason that drove him apart from me. Sticking with the same person for years make him bored. Not adventurous. He needs new love.

Friends keep telling me & in fact congratulating me (wtf) that it was all over. He's not the guy for me, they say. And I kinda agree cause I noticed the change in him. Don't know... maybe me being always around just makes him take things for granted.  But with each day he's around, I feel complete.

He's not the romantic kind of person, neither am I la but I think I rate better wakakakaka~ Throughout these years, we never really celebrated Valentine's one.. During the years he was away, we celebrated through webcam, I'll cook Maggie Mee then switched off the lights in my room to pretend like having candlelight dinner with him while he had his dinner. Then in 2012, he was busy with classes and we just bought a bucket of KFC to eat at home after he finished his work wtf And Christmas, the first 2 years he came back, we celebrated in a hotel that we first went together. Then in 2011, that was the first time he left me for a gal & I spent Christmas at home, crying. and in 2012, history repeated itself but this time, it's another gal, wtf right....

While we were in Melb and at times low in cash, I remember us sharing a shin noodle & a box of kfc together. Or maybe just leftover pizza. But we were happy, truly happy. To me, it's not what you eat that determine hapiness, it's who you are with and whether the person is worth it or not. And to have someone that loves you stand by u all the time, nothing else matters.

Use your brain to make judgement, not your heart, that's what everyone tells me. And I think for once, I'm using my brain. But now shyte liao lor, no1 want to marry me liao... And no1 brings me to Japan shopping liao wtf

When you are drunk right, you will think of the person that matters the most to you. I see him but it doesn't really matter anymore.

I better sleep now.

Puteri

Friday, January 11, 2013

Here I go again...

January 11, 2012 @ 11:57pm

Now if you gonna read this, prepare yourself cause I'm gonna rant a lot, complaint a lot & maybe curse like it's the only language I know. Why? Cause nothing goes smooth today, not even work, which is the only thing that I find solace in.

Some bad shyte happened again at work today, and you know what, the culprit is acting like a victim again. Like.. "Oh, why does this happen.. or why me, I'm innocent" Really fuck this piece of shyte, acting as if we are all at fault & she's just "unlucky" and happened to be there only. Sometimes,  really wonder am I at the right place? Right organization I mean.. You see, I find that most of the time people do things to satisfy their bosses internally rather than spending their time & effort to assist our customers. Aren't we suppose to be serving people "with a smile"? And if everyone is selfish enough to just taking care of their own ass & apple-polishing, then what happen to our customers? If you don't make your customers happy, & you prefer to shoe-licking, then maybe I suggest you switch to a different field. Be a cobbler instead.

Was at the gym & chatted with JustinG for a couple of minutes. I was telling him the situation I'm in & he was like, "Oh, it happened to me last year but I'm feeling better now" WTF How can I easily erase someone from my mind, someone that is obviously not worth it, someone that is I don't know, learning how to hate wtf. It takes time, that's what everybody say and yea, I've been there but it just gets harder when you are old lolzzz But you know what, I'm glad that it happened now, I mean not like later on when my heart couldn't take any more crisis or 'surprises" like this wtf. And there is blessings in disguise, people care about me, people who I've neglected in the past, people who stand by me although I was never really there for them, people who concern about me & keeping track on my progress each other. I really love you guys.

He called a while ago, I answered. We chatted for a moment & it made me realise that as bad as he may be, I kind of miss him at times. I miss people calling me sayang. I miss people loving me as if I'm the most precious thing on earth. And I kinda miss those time we spent together doing nothing or just watch a lousy movie on a Saturday night. I miss pillow talks. You know what, I find it very pressure to live in this cynical world & to have someone resting next to you after a hard day or a long week is truly a blessing. Appreciate your love ones people, don't ended up like me.

But well, since I'm a smarter gal now, I can already control my mind by not missing him. Very easy only, I remember when I confronted him, he said, "She (the gal) is not a bitch" FINE! LET ME BE THE BITCH THEN. How dare he defending another gal in front of me? But it was also clear to me that I have no position in his heart, any longer.

Enough of him. Let's count the blessings that I have now. Erm.. first, I have a few besties who spend time teaching me how to swim. And those who drink drank drunk with and you, you & you!

nite.

puteri

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Gymlogy

Jan 10, 2013 @ 10:37pm

Oh hye! Just got back from the gym, been spending so much time there but honestly I don't work out as much as those gym freak there... My stamina has always been ma-ma-tei only, climb hill I sure die, running also half die. So last time during schooling days I obviously suck in sport one... but hio, don't underestimate me lor ok... last time I got joined 100m run one, get 4th place only (only 4 representatives wtf) Then, during secondary years, I was erm..quite fleshy..as in about 45kg la, I joined tarik tali one.. Actually is our team bo lang liao, bo huat so picked me wtf I stood in the middle lo, show pattern pretended to pull only..Actually I got pull or no pull also made no difference.. But in the end our group won and each of us got a medal. I actually feel paiseh to hang it at home, like people see already also know I kelefeh only, really not important one hahahaha See my size also know :p

Ohya, back to gymlogy. I must train liao, die-die also must train. Met up with Zhi Ying the other day. He was asking me to join the 17km run, the one that my bestie told me as well. Honestly, I'm tempted. But physically & mentally, I'm nothing near ready. Sure ma...walk 1km also I can lose breath liao. Climb hill I reached not even half. But hio, feel like wanna join cuz wanna challenge myself and also accompany my friends lo, yao yi hei one~ wakakaka~

A lot of people say of late, I wasn't like my old self. Sometimes I'm like a crazy gal, I make loud noises as if people around me are deaf. I curse as if that's the only language I know. But sometimes, I'm very quiet & reserved, a little lost in my wandering thoughts. People say guys can sometimes have empty or blank thoughts, I have mastered that too I think. I can stand still, look at a coin & lose my ownself elsewhere.

Am I happy lately? I can't answer that cause I'm still lost in my own emotions. But one thing I know is, he's happy with who he is with now & for that I'm thankful for God. At least, he's not wasting his life & found someone who motivates him to live better. Couldn't believe that I say this kind of thing after what he did. I feel like a saint lolssss!!

Phewwww..... feel so tired but mind can't rest still... Soju anyone? I was actually at the gym & feel so excited suddenly wtf & keep whatsapping my another bestie "Soju?". Then she ignored me wtf 30 minutes later, I sent again "Soju, soju soju" .. Again, she ignored me wtf Then finally I beh tahan liao, I typed in "Soju soju soju soju soju soju soju * multipliers wtf" and this time, she replied, "I just reached home ah jie jie, tireddddd ahhhhhh" Okay la, I understand la, to work until late at night is super emo & damn down one ok I have been there, done that.

Yorrrrrrr cannot upload picture again wtf is wrong!!! I wanna post my sui eh pics wakakaka~

Mai siao liao, wanna try to sleep liao... insomnia, leave me jauh-jauh okay?

Puteri

Monday, January 07, 2013

Vain Puteri

Jan 8, 2012 @ 3.12pm

Just received my 'working schedule" for the cny so I'm super free & available after 7pm ya! Available for drink or eat or play anytime after that but not in the morning hor, cause now I enjoy sleeping until the sun shines on my butt wtf And morning is for family one, bonding time. Also pretend to visit relatives & get ang pow time hahaha~ Gai liao lor, sure they will ask liao, "bf na li?" , 'bila kahwin o", etc.. Kahwin pu tor laaa... target bun bo hahaha!~ Ci pai sien dao liao... >.<

Today ada mood, so rajin-rajin & kuai-kuai write this post dengan sepenuh attention. Brought my daughter for grooming this morning. Aiyoyo super cute ah her face after shaving the misai & the hair on her ear. Kononnya, her bulu is tangled already cause I hardly comb lolsss. Now her head super round & bouncy one! Too bad cilaka sial that I cannot upload photo don't know what's wrong with this mini laptop. I wanna get Macbook ahhhh mana ada sponsorship wtf This lousy laptop I wanna sell it off first leh, who want ah.. lai lai RM 300 gia gia ki >.< Btw, who wants to see Apple eh photo, follow me on instagram ya, name is puterijoylim & I  always upload instantly one

Last night, I went to my 8th aunt house for dinner. Ah Yi very geng lor, cooked a lot of hou hou seik eh dishes for me & my puppy. We ate until super full & got dessert some more leh.. Spent the rest of the night berjalan2 at Autocity but bought nothing wtf... Erm, kinda lala for my liking hahahaha Headed back to Ah Yi's place for supper, she made my favorite fried cempedak, ate whole plate full & went home with sore throat.

Honestly last night leh, I got a bit emo one cuz someone's birthday is today so I think back the things that he did I geram. Then, this stupid friend of mine, very yao yi hei lo. To prevent me from having insomnia again, he called me at 12am sharp & chatted with me, made me feel very relax lor. So I'm feeling very good today & getting better by days. No more upset liao, just a bit of adapting to do. In fact feel so much free liao since I have one less person to worry hahaha~ I don't have to worry about his health, his business, his everything. You guys don't have to worry about Puteri ya, really one. I'm a woman of my words wtf I say I don't care means I don't care. In fact, with what he did, I don't think there's any "love" left between us, just the feeling that part of my life has gone. But what to do, look for new life la, simple as that. And whatever shyte he said about "confuse" & 'heart splitting into 2" fuck man, jiak sai la!!! Really one, if you were me, you spent 4 years loving this person, and still this person tells u "I'm confuse', you also will die heart immedately like me one. And really feel like tiu lei lou mou one!

Yo, my ketiak so busuk cause I sweat a lot from all the moving around this morning. Later I wanna go gym b4 meeting Mr Teoh for dinner tonight. JLo of Ayer Itam (this name I give myself one, feel free to shake head wtf) you must persevere! Must train for 17km, must train!!! Must not sia sueh your friends & yourself ahhhh!

Oh fuck, 3pm plus liao, wanna take a quick nap & do mask. Sambung later, wo ai ni men o wtf bai bai!

puteri

Sunday, January 06, 2013

Just the stupid thing I did today...

Jan 6, 2013 @ 21:35

...went to gym after much hesitation & forgotten to bring my running shoes #awasteofeffort

And I always thought my running shoes is in the car T___T

What to do, reached liao, takkan patah balik meh... Took a long cold water bath while listening to the catchy tunes, did nail color as well before heading home.

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Last night I had a chatty roomate. We chatted while sipping beers until the wee hour of 3am. Then I spent the next 2 hours playing some lousy boring games before dozing off at 5am. Tired but unable to sleep, only God knows why. Apple, being very obedient recently quietly rest outside my room, surrounded by a few of her newly bought toys. I even gave her my Smurfy zai zai & she enjoyed biting it all around.

5 days of "holiday" are down with 3 left... *sigh*

puteri

Friday, January 04, 2013

Gloomy Mummy

Jan 05, 2013 @ 10:20

Today my heart feels as gloomy as the weather..

Well, I'm just joking!! I'm happy like kena fucked by Brad Pitt! Just saying! =p Now I know what makes me happy! Weekend makes me happy! Holiday makes me happy! The phrase "don't need to work" makes me ultra happy ah! Lolzzzz!!! Just so you guys know, I have said this a couple of times but I don't know, just feel like saying it again, I'm on leave until next Wednesday! *lansi face* Eh, let me be happy okay, it's not easy for me to get approval for my leaves okay! Although my initial plan has failed, and most probably I'll have nothing to do just loiter around, I'm still happy! ^.^ Weeeee~~~

And CNY right, I also got a week off. Muahahahahaha!!~ But first 2-3 days already got plan, you know la, pretty gal like me sure a lot of dates one wtf *syok sendiri* Actually, I'll be volunteering at Penang Buddhist Association, doing my part to serve the community once in a while. Who free geh, drop by to say hi ya! =)

Seems like it's going to rain again, please don't I have plan liao T_____T If wanna rain, wait till I oink oink first k dear rain God!

Ish.. so long just to upload a pic, later update la, I need to go liao, muacks muacks bai bai!

puteri

Thursday, January 03, 2013

Just thoughts

Jan 3, 2013 @ 21:55

Just thoughts...

And I had a lot of them while I was driving home from work. I had them when I was pushing my limits at the treadmill & thoughts, I have them all the time.

But right now as I want to pen it down, I don't know where to start. I don't know if I should write what I'm really thinking and most importantly, I don't know whether my writings actually mean something to anyone.

puteri

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Things that only a shyte buddy will tell you (Part 1)

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
The conversation actually went on endlessly & regret o say, it is not appropriate for viewing purpose.
*Grinnnn widely & continue dirty talks wut dafuq*
 
puteri.joy.lim
 
 
 
 
 
 

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

When you're gone

Jan 1, 2013 @ 20:56

Dear Mummy,

Today I saw you silently wept at the corner of your room. I know you are trying to hide your sadness away from us for you don't want to make us worry about you. I know from now on, our home will never be the same like it used to be because the little boy who has brought us laughters has gone. And mummy, today I overheard you calling his name as if he's still with us. And when you realised he's not around, your eyes went teary again.

I'm sorry mummy. Despite all the difficulties & sadness that you are having, I'm still making you worry; worry that I'll be drunk elsewhere on the street, worry when I did not call home to let you know that I'm safe, worry when I'm still driving out aimlessly during wee hours. I'm really, really sorry mummy. I hope you understand that I'm just like you, lost & in doubt. Mummy, we have both "lost" someone we love dearly & unconditionally throughout our lives. And mummy, I know we both can overcome this together.

From now on, I promise I'll drink less. And I'll call if I'm not coming home. I'll drive carefully from now on too. Most importantly, I'll love myself more & take good care of us.

I love you mummy!

Puteri

When the new year begins...

Jan 1, 2013 @ 16:04

So I didn't make it to Cuvee before the year ended... (Sorry Jayden!) because I met with an accident.

Not "accident" in the complete sense but I did reversed & bang into a pillar (very hard some more what dafuq) while I was out with daddy to celebrate his 53rd. The paint came off & "kemek" a bit here & there & I was actually quite angry @ myself for being so careless & upset too. Why must stupid, unfortunate things always have to befall upon me every year end but since everyone is in such good mood, I sucked up my negativity & went with the flow.

Have you heard of the new All Season Place at my territory near my home? (In Farlim just in case you don't know) It's like a one-stop hang out centre where you can see chains of F&B outlets & entertainment centre. Now it's already like one of the coolest & happening place in town! So, we were there, had our dinner @ Roti Bakar (the least crowded place) & spent quality time together as a family because "my youngest brother" is going "home" real soon. Therefore, from now on, it'll only be me, daddy, mummy & my puppy, Apple.

Came home after getting some cakes for supper; still feeling upset with the minor accident & spent the rest of the night LINE-ing with Huey Ping & Whatsapping Zoey. And you know what, the tragedy didn't end there. My phone right, it stopped working all of sudden. I mean the screen just black out & no matter how I tried, I couldn't turned it on! Being a tiny act smart arse, I quickly browsed through the user manual to see what to do in "emergency" like this and I came across this in superbly tiny lettering:

"Never attempt to repair or modify iPhone yourself. iPhone does not contain any user-serviceable parts" except (where applicable) for the sim card & sim tray"

Blah blah blah

Double crisis(s/es/ies) in a night T___T

I put it aside, cursed at it & threatened to throw it out the window if it doesn't recover (narrating this makes me realise that at times I'm stupid) then proceed to take a warm bath.

When I returned to my room a couple of minutes later, it mysteriously turned on and yay! I'm not completely that suey after all...

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And there's this story that I wanna tell you guys. The other day, I was at my friend's place, enjoying an evening swim at the pool & chatting away happily. Then suddenly my friend was signalling to me that there was this guy who had been stalking on us from a distance away. So later my friends swam away while I rested at a corner of the pool & suddenly the guy swam next to me & made conversation.

Here's the funny thing, I have had a history of FAT bfs (Not that I hate skinny people but I find fleshy / muscular guys more yeng & "reliable". The stalker that I mentioned above is ultra fleshy (therefore, FLASHY as well) & meaty & juicy (no pun intended) & as dark as authentic Belgian chocolate & looked *ahem* sloppy.

He started the conversation & it went something like this:

Stalker: Hi!

Me: Oh hi! (I looked terkejut cause I suddenly realised my side of water dries up when he swam by) ---> I'm serious, this is not a joke.

Stalker: You 1st time here? Haven't seen you b4...

Me: (In my mind: Lu chap siao wa, wa 1st time or n-th time kuan lu ka ch'ng business) Erm... yaaa.. 1st time..

Stalker: You just recently move here? Which floor are you staying? What's your number?

Me: (Didn't your mummy teach you to ask one question at a time? And no, I don't have a number, I have a name wut dafuq) Erm.. nope. This is my best friend's place actually and ahh sorry, I got to go, my friend is calling me... *pointing at God-knows-where direction*

And that's how I escaped. My friends & I couldn't stop laughing after that and kept joking on how I always attract "big guys" & that I should try my luck with sumo wrestler in Japan.

A Japanese kareshi? Someday, maybe...

Happy 2013 yaaa!!

Puteri.Joy.Lim