I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST CNY

Hi! Gong Hei Fatt Choy! Sorry ar, wish you guys so late. Been busy lately with lot of stuffs. Plus, I started work on the 3rd day, leaves x approve. By the way, it's the 7th day of CNY, it's everyone's birthday theoretically.

Happy Birthday to myself! *blow whistle*

Happy Birthday to you! And you! And you too! *sarcasm*

CNY has been been great, although income from angpow this year not so great! Apart from daddy & mummy, the rest all susut nilai.

Depreciation in angpow = Depression in Joy.

Didn't do much "bai nian" also in fact I only went to 3 houses this year.

1. My house in Juru (Sipek miss mummy's steamboat)
2. Mr Liew's house (Liew senior make eh fried chicken ho liao! And shark fin soup!) *salivates*
3. My uncle's house for buffet (feast! feast! feast!)

Sorree. No photo. Each time I make a mental note to take photo but when I see food, I lost control. I'd just say "lai ciak ciak ciak" then 3 meatballs already in my mouth. If buffet lagi teruk, I'm always the 2nd in line with plate (bro, the hungry ghost always line up first one) and always have at least 3-4 servings of everything one. Nice or not nice take first. Nice eh eat first. Then not nice eh just put on the plate of the person next to you (usually mummy). The cycle repeats. That's why everyone scare tos it beside me wtf

I think I've gain weight. But, not much. Just enough to cover the loss of weight from ultimate-depression last month. I have always wanted to gain weight mar... My 45kg goal from rabbit year to loong loong year still fail! Ish!

Nehmai, berusaha lagi tahun ini!

Yesterday I cut hair lor! Ultimate sad case la nie... I want shoulder length one and dye angmor color one. The person cut neck length (and still insist it's shoulder length wtf). Make me looks like form 2 gina like that

DIE instead of DYE T____________________________T

Actually I went to a different place (the usual place is closed until next Tue) When I first walked in, I very confident one, I saw the lady boss hairstyle very nice. They say you must first look at the stylist hair ma. So, I went in, told her I wanna cut & dye. She said ok then led me to a seat and brought me a lot of Jap mags.

Suddenly, she asked her husband out to "serve" me. Wah lau eh, Kitaro walked out from the pantry. You guys know who is Kitaro or not!

This fella!

Trust me, the hair more yeng than original Kitaro. My heart screamed OMFG! He had bits of food at the tip of his lips somemore. Must have been hiding in the panty eating kuih kapit!

"MAKE ME LOOK YOUNG, KITARO"

And so Kitaro performed his magical cut, scissors fell down at least thrice.

My face turned from =D to =) to =l to =( to =/

No wonder Kitaro hand shake lah...

Nah, front part. Back I nge nge tie up wtf

One day must wear pinafore go MGS eat hokkien mee and kap KDU lala zai ^.^

Got to go, bai bai! Mua mua mua!

p/s: I'm playing this new iphone game call bodyguard. So you are the bodyguard, you suppose to protect celebrity like Rustin Beaver, Lady Blah Blah, damn sarcastic one go download ba!

Tough Cookie

Tonight I'm happy.

I'm happy because I know, I've changed. To the better or worst, that would be a story for later on. Right now, I'm definitely a stronger Puteri, someone who knows what she wants, someone who wants to have a say and of course to be heard. Gone were the days where the obedient Puteri listened and obeyed blindly for the sake of "love".

Puteri wants to love and to be loved in return.

I've forgive him.

But, I've yet to forget the things he did.

Now, I just wanna learn how to live for myself and those who concern about me. I have to be more independent. No more lembik Puteri. I'm learning to overcome my fears, just to protect myself from being hurt again. It sucks so terribly that I've to admit at times, I still cry myself to sleep. Or to find myself waking up at ungodly hour only to weep in silence till dawn.

I'll be tough man, I gotta be.

My only regret was to see all that Shyte happen during my fav celebration of all time. And because of that, I've to hate Santa from now on! I fucking hate Christmas oh Jesus Christ! I remember telling him we should have a quiet Christmas and do what everyone does, exchanging pressie in the comfort of our home!

Fucking only God knows he had a different surprise installed for me.

And to fulfill my tiny wish for our "ruined Christmas" last year, I got him a present tonight. I feel happy already like that because if he were to be who he was, he'd be happy too :)

For that split of a second, I chose to believe that Shyte never happened.

Nehmai, the worst has already gone. Cry when you need, I was told by a friend. Laugh out loud when you deserve it :)

Scribbles from the heart

Hi guys,

Just a quick post to assure you people that "I'm fine" now =)

Really!

As a matter of fact, I'm "thankful" for this whole dramatic incident that caused me sleepless nights, lose of appetite and traumatic mood swing wtf. At least now, I've learnt to see and accept imperfections in this world. Especially people and things that revolves around us. Nothing is permanent and "forever". We'll just have to appreciate every little thing and cherish every single person we meet,day in and day out.

I see this as a test; a challenge from God on our love. We had to accept the challenge and although we failed terribly, I'm still thankful for I can see how cruel one person dearest to you can be when his heart is no longer with you. On top of that, this also teaches me a lesson in life that we should not rely on anyone else, except ourself.

You definitely make me stronger =)

In times like this, I'll really have to thank God for his blessings! I just never thought that I'll have so many friends stick around me; cry with me, drink with me, scream with me and most importantly,

JUST BE THERE FOR ME =)

I love you guys!

Thank you for sharing my pain and from now on, you will see a stronger me and definitely more joyful than ever! (^.<)

Bai bai guys!

I need a doctor

So, I actually told myself to stop writing about us.

But I can't :(

I actually feel so so so terrible tonight. I want to cry but I have no more tears, I'm drinking but it has no more effect on me.

WHY LA GOD YOU MAKE ME LIKE THAT?!

I can see he's changing for the better, like eating more healthy food. Someone is making a positive impact on him and for that I'm happy. Better than I begged for him to change also he refused wtf. I love Subway; extremely and I always ask him to eat that but he'd always beg until he gets KFC wtf

I even made him skip supper for his own good but he always eat behind my back wtf Once I remember, he said he's going to the toilet then I was in the room playing some games and I wonder what took him so long. So I went to check out on him and saw him holding a piece of cheese gonna put in mouth liao. Then, he pretended like nothing happen and asked me if I want a bite wtf

Each time we're out, he sure scold me one if I check-in with him. And he always tell people he goes out with parents whenever I'm with him.

Am I that sia sueh r wtf So mm kin tak yan meh?!

I'm so so so so tired My most trustable person cheated on me.

Tell me la who to trust?

p/s: I miss my hubby so so so so so so so so fucking damn much.

Day 2 of Diu Year

02/01/2012, 10:23am.

Ohayo guys! Not in a good state here (as expected wtf). Had a rough night missing him so horribly, terribly, extremely much and I don't know who should I tell. Keeping to myself weakens the body and soul and finally at 3 a.m, I surrender myself to a glass of wine (actually 4 wtf) and passed out.

Woken by a cal at 9.32am. Aiyiyayiya aiyiyayiya~ let it rain over me~~ 

I remember in the past, whenever we were apart, he would missed me until cried wtf and hugged my photos to sleep. On my trip to KL for work previously, I bought him a photo frame with both sides and I put 2 photos for him; one a photo of us during our very first stay together and another side a photo of me in dancing suit, he always loved that "deco" on my head.. like Chun Li from Streetfighters one. Ohya, and also a kid photo of me, teehee~ Fei por ling ling that time..chubby like mad (^.<)

Shiate, why can't I get my mind off him, zzzzzzzzzzzzzz............................................

Oh, just so you guys know, I officially hate all types of cats. Don't ask, just bear that in mind and don't mention a word. Seriously you don't want to mess with me at this time. A word, and I'll break your bone.

It saddens me to see him fight so hard for his dream while I can't be there for him. It's not that I don't want, it's just that I'm no longer needed. Remembering how he used to share his dream with me in the past and how he share it with someone else other than me, I NEED A DRINK PLEASEEEEE

And he needs a cat rather than a cow now...a black and white cow...New Zealand cow, mooo~~~~

I can't write now although there's so much in my head and heart.

I need to get out.

Continue later. *hugz*

Missing you...11 days and counting....

HAPPY DIU YEAR 2012

Happy New Year 2011! (^o^)

First post for the year, hehehe what should I write?

Tonight, the thing that I scared most finally happened lu... he finally changed his relationship status to single jor *sob sob sob* Puteri Joy Lim Chen Lin still cannot accept the fact.... ish ish ish..... For the past few days, each time I log in, I will check the relationship status first and have a little consolation for myself... And now, knowing that he's free to date anyone as he likes, my heart kena stab and hancur like banana.......

I lose him lu.

Really down like nobody business. Feel like crying again but I have no one with me tonight. No one for me to hug or curse with me =(

The heart really pain one...indescribable one.....like you want so much to hug him then he push you away. Like you wanna kiss him then he turn away... sob sob sob....

Y LAH I SO NO USE?!

Miss msn-ing with him and see his round stupid face acting like gold fish *sob sob sob*

And how he always tease me that I look like a banana =___________________= (I admit la, banana good ma, eat jor ho pangsai)

Haih, I cannot write now la. My heart pain like shyte, tangan also lembik like tofu. =(

Loving you always.