Tuesday, February 07, 2012

THE WEDDING DIARY

If you don't know what is this about, let me share with you right now. It's a new movie starring Ah Niu from the "dui mian de nv hai kan guo lai" fame.

The movie, it's all about a wedding.

From the months of preparation to the sum involve, a wedding is not as easy as it seems.

Marriage is a "collaboration" between 2 parties (a.k.a families + extended families + a lorry of unrelated people) Wedding is the project that you need to undertake for the first first of real marriage life to begin.

A night of glamour and fame...

...that to some, cost not only a fortune, but squeeze them dry.

I was seriously, deeply, almost-instantly touched by every element incorporated in the movie. You guys seriously have to watch it! Well, it might be predictable and common and all that but go in with an open heart, relate as it goes, trust me..

Your tears will drop in no time, as mine did.

I wept silently.

One of the elements of life that they mention in the movie is "Lies & betrayals". The leading actress asks, "Why is there so many lies in this world?" Believe me, I've been asking the same question ever since 3. People sometimes choose to hide the truth because the ugly truth might hurt you.

If it might be hurting you, then allow me to ask, "Why do people do it in the 1st place?"

We are human, not God. We might at times do things out of our head and when we realise it, it's already too late. Damage has been done. Concealing it is the only option available. Not everyone has the courage to face or admit their fault. This is life and experiences taught me not to expect everything to be perfect.

You cant draw a straight line sometimes even with a ruler and believe it or not, you will never be able to cut an apple into 2 equally even half.

I wept so loud inside when the mother of the leading actress choose to forgive her father for the betrayal and harm he had done to the family. I was moved by her courage. It takes an effort to say a sorry (and meant it). But, it takes twice the effort and courage to accept the apology and to forgive.

Relating to my own experience, I've learnt to see things in a broader perspective. I'm learning to appreciate things / people when they are here and learn to let them go should they have to / choose to.

Often people ask, why are you so fucking damn stupid to hold on to someone like him, to clinge on a love that he no longer cherish, I don't know the answer. And I know deep down inside, he always say the right thing but never did the right thing.

I still love him like b4, in fact much more but if the same thing is to happen again, I definitely will not beg him to stay. Enough is enough, I'm also a human, not God. There's a limitation to the kind of love I could afford to offer. If a person can't stay true to his/her partner or the relationship, then what's the point when 1 person is trying so hard to keep it, to love him?

I'm tired.

And no guys, I'M NOT PREGNANT.

It's hard to forgive and forget. Th mouth might choose to forgive but the heart still feels the pain every now and then. The memory continues to haunt you.

I'm learning to have a life of my own too. I've loved him too much in the past to put him before everything else and taking myself for granted at times. I'm learning to enjoy my own "me-time" and definitely time for my "committee members" that stood by me throught thick and thin. (thank you guys, muah! <3)

Ask me now if I still trust hime like before, I guess you know the answer. After all, what do you expect froma  guy who had previously kept concealing stuffs from you over and over again and makes you feel superbly dumb to the shyte hole?

But, I still believe in the power of dream, in pure love and "happily-ever-after".

Wish me luck <3

p/s: Some pics for your viewing pleasure ^^



My fav pic of the year =D

Get well soon, Ah Boy!

Ah Boy made lunch =)

Habis. Goodnight ^^

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