January 13, 2013 @ 9:35pm
It's that kind of night again. Memories flashback. It all started after I was browsing on Instagram and stumbled upon a photo that my friend had posted; a photo of lok-lok session.
Me and him, we love lok-lok. In fact, we can eat lok-lok as our main meal. I suddenly recalled the good old times that we had lok-lok at Pulau Tikus area & also padang near CDK. He loves quail eggs! I mean like we both can eat lots of cucuk if we didn't have discipline to control ourself. I was the one with more discipline and controlled what he actually eats. Like I only limit him to 2-3 cucuk of quail eggs, for health reason la, it's not like he diets or exercise and quail eggs are really high with cholestrol. And each time he wanted to eat more quail eggs, he would look at me with pity eyes & I would sternly say NO! Then his or lor pattern lai liao, he "nego" la, said share half-half la & I usually gave in wtf And the stall that we usually went right, the bos very funny one, he always count the sticks very fast and in a very hilarious manner. And our bills always came up to lucky numbers one, like RM 19.80, RM 18.80, etc
I mentioned about cholestrol in the above right, this leads to another story. Once we were at the kfc near my workplace for lunch. So i very gaya and ordered lo & proudly told the staffs, "I tak mahu cholestrol huh, I mahu tukar dengan potato" wtf Fatty was standing next to me gigling and he said, "Halo, it's not cho-les-law, it's "coslaw" We couldn't stop laughing throughout the meal. And he even tease me about it after that. The good ol' times.
As much as I'm concern for his health & weight, we never do sports together one. I mean absolutely seldom. All I could recalled was us climbing hill at Youth Park once & went swimming for just once. It's just him, never wanna do sport or maybe he didn't wanna do with me la since I'm also not the sporty kind of person. I'll usually fall sick due to over-tiredness after sport wtf Must change! Must change!
Typing on this laptop reminds me of how we used to chat everynight while he was abroad. We chatted everynight at 8pm sharp, web-caming and often we would chat until frustrated one cuz wifi line was suck to the max. And the distance that separated us made us both miss each other so much that often I'd cry to sleep after our chat session ended. It's funny how we cherished each other so much while we were apart & desperately wanting to be together. But when he's back here, he left me; twice. Really funny how things work sometimes. It is always the tough times that brings me closer to him, the tough times that makes me cherish him more & those memories that makes my love for him grow. But maybe, it was also for the same reason that drove him apart from me. Sticking with the same person for years make him bored. Not adventurous. He needs new love.
Friends keep telling me & in fact congratulating me (wtf) that it was all over. He's not the guy for me, they say. And I kinda agree cause I noticed the change in him. Don't know... maybe me being always around just makes him take things for granted. But with each day he's around, I feel complete.
He's not the romantic kind of person, neither am I la but I think I rate better wakakakaka~ Throughout these years, we never really celebrated Valentine's one.. During the years he was away, we celebrated through webcam, I'll cook Maggie Mee then switched off the lights in my room to pretend like having candlelight dinner with him while he had his dinner. Then in 2012, he was busy with classes and we just bought a bucket of KFC to eat at home after he finished his work wtf And Christmas, the first 2 years he came back, we celebrated in a hotel that we first went together. Then in 2011, that was the first time he left me for a gal & I spent Christmas at home, crying. and in 2012, history repeated itself but this time, it's another gal, wtf right....
While we were in Melb and at times low in cash, I remember us sharing a shin noodle & a box of kfc together. Or maybe just leftover pizza. But we were happy, truly happy. To me, it's not what you eat that determine hapiness, it's who you are with and whether the person is worth it or not. And to have someone that loves you stand by u all the time, nothing else matters.
Use your brain to make judgement, not your heart, that's what everyone tells me. And I think for once, I'm using my brain. But now shyte liao lor, no1 want to marry me liao... And no1 brings me to Japan shopping liao wtf
When you are drunk right, you will think of the person that matters the most to you. I see him but it doesn't really matter anymore.
I better sleep now.
Puteri
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Friday, January 11, 2013
Here I go again...
January 11, 2012 @ 11:57pm
Now if you gonna read this, prepare yourself cause I'm gonna rant a lot, complaint a lot & maybe curse like it's the only language I know. Why? Cause nothing goes smooth today, not even work, which is the only thing that I find solace in.
Some bad shyte happened again at work today, and you know what, the culprit is acting like a victim again. Like.. "Oh, why does this happen.. or why me, I'm innocent" Really fuck this piece of shyte, acting as if we are all at fault & she's just "unlucky" and happened to be there only. Sometimes, really wonder am I at the right place? Right organization I mean.. You see, I find that most of the time people do things to satisfy their bosses internally rather than spending their time & effort to assist our customers. Aren't we suppose to be serving people "with a smile"? And if everyone is selfish enough to just taking care of their own ass & apple-polishing, then what happen to our customers? If you don't make your customers happy, & you prefer to shoe-licking, then maybe I suggest you switch to a different field. Be a cobbler instead.
Was at the gym & chatted with JustinG for a couple of minutes. I was telling him the situation I'm in & he was like, "Oh, it happened to me last year but I'm feeling better now" WTF How can I easily erase someone from my mind, someone that is obviously not worth it, someone that is I don't know, learning how to hate wtf. It takes time, that's what everybody say and yea, I've been there but it just gets harder when you are old lolzzz But you know what, I'm glad that it happened now, I mean not like later on when my heart couldn't take any more crisis or 'surprises" like this wtf. And there is blessings in disguise, people care about me, people who I've neglected in the past, people who stand by me although I was never really there for them, people who concern about me & keeping track on my progress each other. I really love you guys.
He called a while ago, I answered. We chatted for a moment & it made me realise that as bad as he may be, I kind of miss him at times. I miss people calling me sayang. I miss people loving me as if I'm the most precious thing on earth. And I kinda miss those time we spent together doing nothing or just watch a lousy movie on a Saturday night. I miss pillow talks. You know what, I find it very pressure to live in this cynical world & to have someone resting next to you after a hard day or a long week is truly a blessing. Appreciate your love ones people, don't ended up like me.
But well, since I'm a smarter gal now, I can already control my mind by not missing him. Very easy only, I remember when I confronted him, he said, "She (the gal) is not a bitch" FINE! LET ME BE THE BITCH THEN. How dare he defending another gal in front of me? But it was also clear to me that I have no position in his heart, any longer.
Enough of him. Let's count the blessings that I have now. Erm.. first, I have a few besties who spend time teaching me how to swim. And those who drink drank drunk with and you, you & you!
nite.
puteri
Now if you gonna read this, prepare yourself cause I'm gonna rant a lot, complaint a lot & maybe curse like it's the only language I know. Why? Cause nothing goes smooth today, not even work, which is the only thing that I find solace in.
Some bad shyte happened again at work today, and you know what, the culprit is acting like a victim again. Like.. "Oh, why does this happen.. or why me, I'm innocent" Really fuck this piece of shyte, acting as if we are all at fault & she's just "unlucky" and happened to be there only. Sometimes, really wonder am I at the right place? Right organization I mean.. You see, I find that most of the time people do things to satisfy their bosses internally rather than spending their time & effort to assist our customers. Aren't we suppose to be serving people "with a smile"? And if everyone is selfish enough to just taking care of their own ass & apple-polishing, then what happen to our customers? If you don't make your customers happy, & you prefer to shoe-licking, then maybe I suggest you switch to a different field. Be a cobbler instead.
Was at the gym & chatted with JustinG for a couple of minutes. I was telling him the situation I'm in & he was like, "Oh, it happened to me last year but I'm feeling better now" WTF How can I easily erase someone from my mind, someone that is obviously not worth it, someone that is I don't know, learning how to hate wtf. It takes time, that's what everybody say and yea, I've been there but it just gets harder when you are old lolzzz But you know what, I'm glad that it happened now, I mean not like later on when my heart couldn't take any more crisis or 'surprises" like this wtf. And there is blessings in disguise, people care about me, people who I've neglected in the past, people who stand by me although I was never really there for them, people who concern about me & keeping track on my progress each other. I really love you guys.
He called a while ago, I answered. We chatted for a moment & it made me realise that as bad as he may be, I kind of miss him at times. I miss people calling me sayang. I miss people loving me as if I'm the most precious thing on earth. And I kinda miss those time we spent together doing nothing or just watch a lousy movie on a Saturday night. I miss pillow talks. You know what, I find it very pressure to live in this cynical world & to have someone resting next to you after a hard day or a long week is truly a blessing. Appreciate your love ones people, don't ended up like me.
But well, since I'm a smarter gal now, I can already control my mind by not missing him. Very easy only, I remember when I confronted him, he said, "She (the gal) is not a bitch" FINE! LET ME BE THE BITCH THEN. How dare he defending another gal in front of me? But it was also clear to me that I have no position in his heart, any longer.
Enough of him. Let's count the blessings that I have now. Erm.. first, I have a few besties who spend time teaching me how to swim. And those who drink drank drunk with and you, you & you!
nite.
puteri
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Gymlogy
Jan 10, 2013 @ 10:37pm
Oh hye! Just got back from the gym, been spending so much time there but honestly I don't work out as much as those gym freak there... My stamina has always been ma-ma-tei only, climb hill I sure die, running also half die. So last time during schooling days I obviously suck in sport one... but hio, don't underestimate me lor ok... last time I got joined 100m run one, get 4th place only (only 4 representatives wtf) Then, during secondary years, I was erm..quite fleshy..as in about 45kg la, I joined tarik tali one.. Actually is our team bo lang liao, bo huat so picked me wtf I stood in the middle lo, show pattern pretended to pull only..Actually I got pull or no pull also made no difference.. But in the end our group won and each of us got a medal. I actually feel paiseh to hang it at home, like people see already also know I kelefeh only, really not important one hahahaha See my size also know :p
Ohya, back to gymlogy. I must train liao, die-die also must train. Met up with Zhi Ying the other day. He was asking me to join the 17km run, the one that my bestie told me as well. Honestly, I'm tempted. But physically & mentally, I'm nothing near ready. Sure ma...walk 1km also I can lose breath liao. Climb hill I reached not even half. But hio, feel like wanna join cuz wanna challenge myself and also accompany my friends lo, yao yi hei one~ wakakaka~
A lot of people say of late, I wasn't like my old self. Sometimes I'm like a crazy gal, I make loud noises as if people around me are deaf. I curse as if that's the only language I know. But sometimes, I'm very quiet & reserved, a little lost in my wandering thoughts. People say guys can sometimes have empty or blank thoughts, I have mastered that too I think. I can stand still, look at a coin & lose my ownself elsewhere.
Am I happy lately? I can't answer that cause I'm still lost in my own emotions. But one thing I know is, he's happy with who he is with now & for that I'm thankful for God. At least, he's not wasting his life & found someone who motivates him to live better. Couldn't believe that I say this kind of thing after what he did. I feel like a saint lolssss!!
Phewwww..... feel so tired but mind can't rest still... Soju anyone? I was actually at the gym & feel so excited suddenly wtf & keep whatsapping my another bestie "Soju?". Then she ignored me wtf 30 minutes later, I sent again "Soju, soju soju" .. Again, she ignored me wtf Then finally I beh tahan liao, I typed in "Soju soju soju soju soju soju soju * multipliers wtf" and this time, she replied, "I just reached home ah jie jie, tireddddd ahhhhhh" Okay la, I understand la, to work until late at night is super emo & damn down one ok I have been there, done that.
Yorrrrrrr cannot upload picture again wtf is wrong!!! I wanna post my sui eh pics wakakaka~
Mai siao liao, wanna try to sleep liao... insomnia, leave me jauh-jauh okay?
Puteri
Oh hye! Just got back from the gym, been spending so much time there but honestly I don't work out as much as those gym freak there... My stamina has always been ma-ma-tei only, climb hill I sure die, running also half die. So last time during schooling days I obviously suck in sport one... but hio, don't underestimate me lor ok... last time I got joined 100m run one, get 4th place only (only 4 representatives wtf) Then, during secondary years, I was erm..quite fleshy..as in about 45kg la, I joined tarik tali one.. Actually is our team bo lang liao, bo huat so picked me wtf I stood in the middle lo, show pattern pretended to pull only..Actually I got pull or no pull also made no difference.. But in the end our group won and each of us got a medal. I actually feel paiseh to hang it at home, like people see already also know I kelefeh only, really not important one hahahaha See my size also know :p
Ohya, back to gymlogy. I must train liao, die-die also must train. Met up with Zhi Ying the other day. He was asking me to join the 17km run, the one that my bestie told me as well. Honestly, I'm tempted. But physically & mentally, I'm nothing near ready. Sure ma...walk 1km also I can lose breath liao. Climb hill I reached not even half. But hio, feel like wanna join cuz wanna challenge myself and also accompany my friends lo, yao yi hei one~ wakakaka~
A lot of people say of late, I wasn't like my old self. Sometimes I'm like a crazy gal, I make loud noises as if people around me are deaf. I curse as if that's the only language I know. But sometimes, I'm very quiet & reserved, a little lost in my wandering thoughts. People say guys can sometimes have empty or blank thoughts, I have mastered that too I think. I can stand still, look at a coin & lose my ownself elsewhere.
Am I happy lately? I can't answer that cause I'm still lost in my own emotions. But one thing I know is, he's happy with who he is with now & for that I'm thankful for God. At least, he's not wasting his life & found someone who motivates him to live better. Couldn't believe that I say this kind of thing after what he did. I feel like a saint lolssss!!
Phewwww..... feel so tired but mind can't rest still... Soju anyone? I was actually at the gym & feel so excited suddenly wtf & keep whatsapping my another bestie "Soju?". Then she ignored me wtf 30 minutes later, I sent again "Soju, soju soju" .. Again, she ignored me wtf Then finally I beh tahan liao, I typed in "Soju soju soju soju soju soju soju * multipliers wtf" and this time, she replied, "I just reached home ah jie jie, tireddddd ahhhhhh" Okay la, I understand la, to work until late at night is super emo & damn down one ok I have been there, done that.
Yorrrrrrr cannot upload picture again wtf is wrong!!! I wanna post my sui eh pics wakakaka~
Mai siao liao, wanna try to sleep liao... insomnia, leave me jauh-jauh okay?
Puteri
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